so its been a while...

i am a horrible blogger and i'm sorry for anyone that read my blogs in the past. my last blog was in march and it was song lyrics... and i'm pretty sure the last few before that were song lyrics or bible verses, so not really anything interesting. i like the idea of blogging, but its one of those thing... like reading. i like the idea of reading, but usually when i want to start reading a book i'm not really in the mood. this is actually not the case recently (i've been reading a lot) and i decided maybe this won't be the case anymore with blogging. so here's another blog!

i don't really think my life is so exciting, but i'll give you an update anyway. i have one semester of bethel left! woo hoo. and i'm scared to death, because i have no idea what i want to do from there and if i even chose the right major. is it funny i'm still thinking about that when i'm so close to being done? :) the nice thing about being a business major is that it opens the doors to a lot of things-- besides the obvious. currently, i'm working at the "obvious" business, though: wells fargo. which is a "good" job, but it has ruined all my ambitions about everything i thought i wanted to do. i just know i don't want to do THAT. i feel like big businesses, in general, tend to hurt people more than they help them. maybe this is my pessimistic outlook, and maybe its because anyone with problems is likely to talk to me first, but its really disheartening to have so many people call you because they were taken advantage of by people within wells fargo. its hard to be proud of your company or even proud of your job. and its even more hard to feel like you are expected to try to take advantage of people while you fix their problems. its a vicious cycle and i'm not sure i blame wells fargo, necessarily, but big business. if something is built on greed, there has to be someone getting hurt in all of that. so thank you, democrat friends and wells fargo, you have made me rethink my entire life and i'm stuck in an early mid life crisis already. oh well, i'm sure the economy will turn around and i can go to grad school for something else.

what else? there really is nothing else, to be honest lol. like i said before, i've been reading a lot lately. and i've been watching a lot of movies. favorite movies: dark knight, slumdog millionaire. love them. its hard to say i have a favorite book because i don't read enough, but i recently read marley and me, sarah's key, angels and demons, this present darkness and... yes... the twilight series. and i'm sorry, but i enjoyed all of them, despite what i first thought about any of them. and i definitely was anti-twilight because people are so obsessed and the synopsis seemed silly... but its well written. i recommend it.

because of my crazy school/work schedule during the summer, i decided i deserved a well-needed summer BREAK. which is why i don't have a whole lot to say. i'm going to try to start getting involved in things like 20-somethings at open door and i've made a few trips to the cities, etc. to visit friends. but its actually really nice to not HAVE to do anything for once. i think i'm going to have to find a happy medium the rest of my life-- because i hate being so lazy, but at the same time i can't be so busy or i will: A) get an ulcer/have a heart attack/have a stroke, B) go off the deep end, C) have nervous breakdowns on a daily basis, D) have no social life whatsoever, or E) all of the above. so that's my goal after i graduate. we'll see how life goes when i have more control over it. :)

well cheers, i'll try to write more, especially now that i have time.
<3 Kara