every little thing's gonna be all right

i was just reading through some of my old blogs, and it's funny to see what i was so concerned about then and just how things are now. most of the things i have been so upset about or worried about have been figured out... even some i can't even remember, apparently.

some of my complaints this last year:
i hated st olaf
my doctors thought i might have cancer
my computer died and i lost a lot of my music
my boss hated me and was basically making life at work hell
i was overscheduled
i was underscheduled
i was doing bad in school
i failed an important test
i had no idea what i wanted to do with my life

now:
i don't go to st olaf-- and i love my new school.
i don't have cancer.
i got a new computer, was able to charge it to my account, got a free ipod and i found a lot of the music i lost on random mixes i found in my room/car
my boss quit and i never have to work with him ever again and our new gm seems to like me a lot
i'm making just enough money right now
my teacher threw out the test i failed (i have no idea why), so i got a b in the class
and i ended up getting a's or b's in all my classes, which means my gpa is still good
i'm pretty sure i've figured out what i want to major in and i have some sort of direction now

i just think it's ridiculous-- it just proves that it's not worth worrying about anything or getting too down because everything really is under control. and i'm not saying that because i'm in the clear-- there are a lot of really crappy things i still have to deal with. but it's just funny to look back on how stressed i was last year and just see now how none of it really even mattered. especially that test-- i was so depressed and he THREW IT OUT! some teachers do that, but he never said he was going to, i think he just decided to at the last minute. it just makes all of my worrying and bitterness seem so stupid now.

i'm going to try to adapt my new work philosophy to the rest of my life: when i focus on the really nice people and all the good tips i get, then the mean people and people that tip nothing just don't even bother me. and it just makes my job so much more fun, i'm happier a lot of the time now AND i encounter less crabby people and get really good tips. focusing on the good situations makes your problems seem so meaningless and makes your life just get better and better. and fretting is so pointless and draining anyway because it does nothing (obviously) and is just a waste of time and energy and life. no problem could ever be worth wasting your life over if you can help it. so don't (if you can help it.)